Unwanted

Every night the same all consuming doubts plague my mind and haunt my dreams. Every invitation that is denied, every advance that is ignored and every moment of opportunity that goes wasted cuts into my heart and destroys whatever shred of confidence I may have had left. Before, I felt amazing, loved, and so very wanted...now, I feel worthless, repulsive and like a complete failure. I haven't lived up to any of your dreams or expectations...I'm nothing but a useless let down am I? Everytime you make it to sleep without my blunt protest or my insistance you must breathe a sigh of relief...one more day through which you didn't have to suffer the rottenness of me.